*I feel kinda whiny. So heads up :)
*This weekend I started feeling lame. The kind of lame where all you want to do is see your boyfriend. I don't want to be That Girl. Not at all. Unfortunately, Roomie has kind of turned into That Girl, worse than I have. I really really still want to go out with my friends. I realize that this coupling up stuff coincided with cold weather so going out is way less enticing, but still. I need to feel like I am still me, and I still have a life of my own. It is hard to do that alone, though. I really wish I could find some girl friends that shared this outlook on life. As much as I love WS, I don't want him to be the focus of 90% of my waking hours.
*Christmas is fucking my budget. I am so incredibly broke, it isn't even funny. I will be eating a lot of Ramen between here and the new year! Oh well. I have a serious plan to get into better financial shape in 2009. I love buying people presents, so at least it's for something I like.
*Tonight is my work Christmas party. WS is in full-on finals mode, so Gigi is going to be my date. Basically it will consist of dressing up, being pissed I am wasting an outfit on work people, and then drinking as much free wine as I can. The food should be ok, so at least I don't have to eat Ramen. I am still a little bitter about the fruit basket, and the fact that I have to work till 1 on Christmas Eve, and the entire day after. If you knew what kind of business I worked in, you would understand how ludicrous it is to be open the day after Christmas. I have got to figure out what I want to do with my life and where I want to do it so that I can get out of here.
*I am starting to feel like it is Me Vs. My Body.
Me: I would like to be thin. And hairless. Oh, and the whole baby thing? Not sure I want to do that. At least not soon.
My Body: Babies babies babies! I want chocolate. Ooohh if we got pregnant, I could make you eat lots more. And I am cold, so I gotta regrow this leg hair ASAP!
Seriously. I am starting to get tired of this fight. It pisses me off that I have to pump my body full of fake hormones to try to talk it out of what it wants. It should want what I want! And then the fake hormones make you fat. Damn it.
*I think I am going to see ICB for the first time in months today. He has been hounding me to come get this shoe that he still has. I thought I had lost it in the move. I would just tell him to throw it away, but they were expensive shoes and I could really use them. I am sick of dealing with his pouty, desperate antics. Every little thing I say he overreacts to. I know that when I do this in a hurry, so that I can get to the party, he is going to get all huffy and say shit like "sorry for bothering you". Ugh.
OK well hopefully I can think of some more up-beat things to post later in the week. Hope everyone had a great weekend!
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My body says, "give me fried things, and beer, and cigarettes, please!!!!" I feel ya on that one!
After next week, I will so be ready for some girl time, so we can go out....maybe even during the week!
Hello, friend.
First of all I can totally relate to your Monday and this post. I think I agreed to almost everything you wrote! Except maybe the baby part... but the food thing? heck yes!
I will write the alocholic story just for you this week! And how luck you are to have friends who blog (mine don't get it) and to be real-life friends with them. I often think i'd have some kickass friends if my blog friends were my real friends :)
boo for working on Christmas!!! WHO'S OPEN ON CHRISTMAS? YOU better be getting time and a half. GEEZ.
just kidding. I re-read it and you definitely said the day AFTER. Me, too. I had to burn two personal days for Christmas this year.
Aw, don't feel lame for wanting to be around the boyfriend a lot. It's normal! Plus, I don't even have a boy and I don't feel like going out in the cold most nights these days.
As long as you don't forget your friends then your good. And if you see your friends getting caught up in their relationships remind them that girls nights are necessary! very very necessary.
Ooh. The Me vs. Body thing. I get it.
Believe me I do.
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