This is mayjah!

So, my life might be about to totally change.

I have been wanting to go back to school ever since I graduated. I have flip-flopped and been really flaky about it. I have found reasons not to do it, and in fact my whole life I have found reasons not to do things, school-wise. I didn't want to go far for undergrad, and then I was going to transfer but I thought it was too expensive. So on and so forth.

Well, I think it is time. I am terrified. I think I am moving to a bigger city about an hour or so away. By myself. To go to school. Can you tell I am freaking? I know it doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is to me. I have always been independent, to a fault sometimes actually, but for some reason I have not been able to push myself out of the comfort zone that I am in here in my college town.

I was planning on waiting for WS to finish school. We had planned on moving somewhere together, and I was going to just go to school then. Part of me still sees the upside to that plan (namely financially) but I think I have to do it now. My job is slowly killing my soul. It is mindless, and I feel so fucking trapped. Gigi is leaving in the Fall, and without her there I swear I will hate my life.

This all started when I picked up Roomie's Suze Orman book "Young, Fabulous and Broke" or whatever it's called. I was reading it to see if I could learn anything new for my Financial Revolution. She had a chapter were she urges the reader to do whatever they have to do to get in a career path they are excited about. She says it is the perfect time in life to do that, and in the long run whatever debt you incur will be worth it.

What am I waiting for? I want to start my life.

WS has been so amazing and supportive. He will move up there with me next May after he graduates. He promised to come and see me as many weekends as he can. He said it changes nothing about how he sees us or our future. I have never done the Long Distance thing, but I think it is a good thing that I feel comfortable and secure enough in our relationship to do it. It would only be 9 months to a year, and some of that would probably be after we are engaged. There is probably a post coming up about that situation sometime soon.

So here I am. I am trying to do some homework on the program, it is kind of weird. So I am asking around, and I also need to figure out Financial Aid and all that jazz. I would also have to decide if I want to move in May or August (August would be much smarter but would involve me living with my mother for two months...yikes) and figure out if I can find part-time work. I would need to sell my car, and I would need a new computer. So many details! I have to say though, it is exhilarating. The idea that I could be somewhere totally new in a few short months is thrilling. No more crazy work hours, no more boredom. No more wasting my time. On my way to an actual career that I think I will enjoy and find fulfilling. I am not 100% that I will do this, but I would say I am at about 80%. I just need to make sure the program isn't shit. Other than that, it looks like all systems are a go!

Wish me luck!